Isaac's great escape

Yesterday was going pretty normal, except D went out about 6 to the front yard to do some edging. It needed it badly so I was happy he was going to get it done. When he does yard work, the garage is always up. I pay closer attention to where the kids are for this reason, but somehow yesterday I was not on top of my game. Here is my epic Mommy fail. Jess, the two little boys and I were in the living room watching Handy Manny. Isaac started playing in the rocks around the pond. Time to distract. ABA style. "Isaac...come look out the front door! I see Daddy doing the yard!" It worked. Out of the pond he went, to the front door (which is always locked-both heavy door and glass) and started giggling. Right up behind us came Landon. "I wanna see Daddy too!" So I moved over and let Landon stand in front of me. Isaac went back towards to the living room. Thinking he was going back to Jess to watch more Handy Manny, I stood there with Landon telling him Daddy was what was called edging. No joke, 15 seconds had gone by and I turned around and said "where's Isaac?!" Running into the kitchen I see so many things off! Owen is staring out of the OPEN door that leads into the garage and Polly is about to go out of it! OH SHIT and ISAAC were my next thoughts as I flew out the door yelling JESS!!! JESSICA!!!! on my way out. I take off down the driveway, screaming Isaac, look left- nothing, look right and at first see nothing then way across Littlemore 4 houses down the other side of Kettering I see my little baby running at top speed. I am frantically yelling ISAAC  and BABY  to try to get Dennis's attention, but he can't hear me over the edger. Adrenaline has way past kicked in by now and I'm running faster than I ever thought across the street, not even paying attention to any cars. Isaac finally starts to hear me, turns around in the middle of Kettering and is grinning and giggling. He starts running back to me and I finally reach him. The whole way back to the house I don't let his feet touch the ground. D has caught up to us just after I catch him and is asking me what happened. 1. I can barely breathe much less talk. 2. All that is coming out are sobs. 3. How do you tell your best friend/spouse/baby's father/ the truth....you looked away for 30 seconds and lost your child?!?! As soon as we get back in the house I set him down in the kitchen, and immediately got down on my knees and thanked God for letting me catch him unharmed. He is fine. Anyone who lives in Countrywood knows that my street, Littlemore, is a cut through for the neighborhood. It cuts through from Rockcreek and Chimney Rock and people FLY down my street. For Isaac to make it across Littlemore and not get hit was a blessing alone! I was sick to my stomach all last night thinking about what if's and stuff like that. D and I knew that alot of autistic children are escape risks, but this was our first. We will be going to Lowe's and babies r us for all kinds of locks, etc. I am shaken up badly by this, but I am mostly grateful he is fine. It really is an amazing thing that my baby is ok. D kept asking me last night if I was ok...um HELL NO. I'm not ok, I'm scared it will happen again. I'm scared I won't be as fast next time, if there is one. I'm a big girl....carrying almost 70lbs of weight that's not ideal for me...and the what if's come roaring back in my head...
Then, I can look at my baby and once again Thank God he is home safe. Blessed beyond belief.

Positive thoughts and Gratitude Journal!

Saw the 30 day detox thing on the Today show...on my flipboard.. and while I'm not quite ready to detox from the internet ( I do that whole selling stuff on fb) I did want to curb my negativity. It has been tested the past few days. I have had to really think about what comes out of my mouth almost constantly. This makes me happy I am trying to do this! An amazing lady suggested I do a gratitude journal, and I thought FABULOUS IDEA! So, here it is! I'm a bit late on starting, better late than never and this will be easier than finding an actual journal somewhere in the house...which is getting more organized by the day! Yay!
My most recent thanks of the past few days...
My mother grabbing me milk while she was at the store the other day. Didn't have to lug 2 kids into a gas station or Kroger just for milk!
D letting me go outside 10 min before they did so I could just soak up sun in peace.
My washer and dryer. Rocking out over 10 loads of laundry yesterday!
Getting the dates down for the Countrywood garage sale! I'm ready to start getting everything in the garage.
The big kids being back from their dads!
SCHOOL STARTING! AMEN!
D cooking/grilling. Love love love when he cooks for me!
D being willing to pick the crabs up when they won't go back into their shells...eek!
Remembering to take time to pray. This one has been important to me lately. And Isaac has been working with me on this one. Instead of dragging me to my bed, he's been dragging me to his. Which means that while he is going to sleep in his bed, I am laying on the floor. Gives me time to just reflect on the day, do a little stretching and few yoga poses (like child's pose), and pray. I am very thankful for these times the past few days.
Until the next time I am able to update my journal...God bless!