What's for dinner?

I think this is the single most asked question of me lately! I have no clue!! I am grateful that Justin gave me all those cookbooks. I do think I will be using them really soon! What is it about fall and winter that makes me want to cook so badly?! Maybe it's the cool/cold weather.. and if I get hot I can just step outside? The idea that many people don't worry about diets during the holidays so we tend to cook more... It's not that easy for us to plan dinners...and we eat so dang early. As you can imagine, Isaac gives us our schedule and he is the pickiest eater. I am giving in to serious thoughts of adult dinner and kids dinner having completely separate menus. Me, D and Landon aren't feeling that great tonight..so it's soup and grilled cheese!
We were supposed to go to Ann's tonight to celebrate her and Meredith's birthday...and well...my body..especially my sinuses said nope. I don't get to see Ann that much.
Since I haven't been feeling that great and not doing much but laying around on the couch, I've been thinking about the holidays and Christmas mostly! The older I get...the more I would rather give than receive. This year is a bit different. We have struggled before, but this year seemed to really kick our asses. Every year I put the kids wishlists on Amazon for family, so I don't have to keep track of who I told what. Just pick something and I'll mark it or something.
Another thing that is different..is I have added my wishlist. I actually have one this year. Most of it is for the house, but three or four are for me. Do I expect to get them..no. But it was fun! Fun to daydream about all the things I could do to improve the house! I can paint cabinets if I had the stuff! I can install those string lights for Isaac if I had them with the curtains! Only one of the faucets really is needed..the rest would just be small upgrade. People are always saying it's the little things. It is! Little things make you mad, or happy. Like Starbucks. Happy. Walking into the kitchen and liking your light fixture...happy. Having a coffee table...happy :)  We haven't ever had one a coffee table or side tables. I'm not silly enough to think about getting super nice stuff...just something. A rug by this big old pond would be sweet!! See! It's exciting to think about!! The only thing on the list that is just for me is the hair stuff I think. Good hair care much needed or I look like a fried Shakira. Just imagine.
I think I marked all of Isaac's and Landon's stuff high on the priority list...the next would be the house stuff...detergent, cleaning stuff etc. You know you are broke and an adult when you would be extremely happy with a giant thing of toilet paper for Christmas!!! Or socks...dang! I should go add socks...
We have hit our out of pocket max for this year and I am starting to dread the New Year and starting all over. On a positive note I have already started my New Year's Resolution thing! I am starting to think you should maybe start on your birthday...
I still have been good and haven't smoked since May 4. I can smell things better..which is a blessing and a curse. I still haven't gotten to the point where the smoke smell doesn't make me crave it when I smell it. I hope that changes. Maybe it never will. Who knows...all I know is deodorant is a fabulous thing and I really have to avoid certain perfume areas in the mall!! On a good note though...when I smell coffee I could float away on a cloud like in cartoons. It's the little things ;)
Guess I better get to dinner...whatever it will be...

Here is the link to our wishlist. Every bit helps and we are saving up for the new year payments for Isaac. Have a blessed rest of the weekend!
https://amzn.com/w/1HOB6VCWKVTTJ

His gofundme  www.gofundme.com/isaaccourtney