I am sad today. So I guess that's a hint of how the tone of this blog will be. I have made the decision that Brandon needs to go live with his dad in Biloxi for a while. What's a while...I don't know. What I do know is that so far I have failed him as his parent. He needs a WHOLE LOT MORE that what I can give him. And I really don't mean money. My emotions on this are all over the place, and I made this decision alone. Cause that's how I feel when it comes to Brandon. ALONE. If more explanation is needed on that..feel free to text, email, call or ask me in person but be prepared for a rant. When I posted this on facebook, that he was moving, I got support from 2 people. I haven't spoken to those 2 people in probably over 10 years at least. To Ms Jill and Ashley, thank you so much. It means alot that someone else has had to make that hard choice and does not regret it. I hope Brandon gets what he needs down there.
Landon. Oh my silly little Landon. He's stuck in the middle. I feel for him. Stuck between teenage ADHD and toddler Autism and Language Disorder. I just don't know what else to say.
Isaac. He needs so much. He's getting some therapies in school right now (speech and some OT) but it is no where near enough. Not by a long shot. Yes, Tenncare will cover the cost of diapers for those with Autism over 3. I don't have Tenncare. We make like $30 a month too much for that. Cigna doesn't cover it. Diapers diapers diapers. Good Lord y'all... when your child is too big for size 6 diapers and you have to start ordering online size 7s (only made by Pampers) it gets so darn expensive. And when you have to get special needs diapers...look out! I have been trying to order (when I can money wise) special extra large sizes of cloth diapers to try to save money. Wouldn't you know public schools only let you use disposables. I'm so screwed. OT is what would help with potty training...they are also the ones that help with food issues, his throwing up every time he has a haircut, and tons of other stuff.. so how do you choose?!? 30 minutes a WEEK to work on ONE THING at school, and mostly they work on fine motor skills...like pinching stuff. Cause he can't do that either.
I have been begging facebook friends and family to donate or SHARE his gofundme fundraiser. For months. It saddens me that no one shares his page. In the rules of gofundme, the page cannot go public on their site for unknown donations until we can raise $100 of our own. I know a lot of my friends are broke, just like us, but it takes 2 seconds to share the status. Why can't my friends, fb and those I love to pieces and would do for them, and ESPECIALLY FAMILY share this post?! It hurts my heart so much that my family won't even SHARE! Please notice I said share, not necessarily donate. It takes almost nothing to share the post. I'm the one begging for help, not the person sharing.
I shared his fund this morning, as I am trying to do every few days, losing more and more hope. Then something happened. A wonderful lady, whom I haven't seen or spoken to in over 15 years at least, donated to Isaac. I started crying in the kitchen. Ms. Brooke, thank you from the bottom of our hearts! A few months back, another wonderful lady I haven't spoken to in years, sent me a Kroger gift card just to help me out. Amy, I still think of your generosity all the time.
We still have a bit to go to reach the $100, and it going public.
At first I was mad, but then I realized no I'm just sad. People donate all the time to others they don't know through this funding page... for colleges, medical bills, etc. That is wonderful! We just would like that chance for Isaac too.
Please, go to my link and share. Please.
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